My Journey

It’s Friday evening, and I am not going to a concert tonight. I’m not even going to go out! I’m actually looking forward to an evening where I don’t have to do anything. Got lotsa plans for the weekend but tonight is a free night.

I’m really working on consistently eating to enough…I’ve had many victories this week. I feel like a rock star. And I continue to lose weight, which is really gratifying. For maybe the first time in many, many years I feel like success is mine, and not just when I make it to my goal weight, but NOW. I’m not even certain about the goal weight, because I haven’t weighed anything like it in 20 years.

This morning I weighed in at 203.2. If you had told me in December that I would weigh this in 4 months…I would not have believed it. That is the problem. Is/was the problem. Believing it.

What I’ve come to realize with the help of a few amazing podcasts, most notably Corinne Crabtree’s Losing 100 pounds with Corinne, is that what I say to myself matters. As much or maybe even more than what I eat. I am considering becoming a No BS Woman when the membership opens up again. I think I need it to ease into maintenance.

I am thinking ahead, of course. I still have 28 pounds to lose to achieve the goal. I’m not even sure that’s a good weight for me, I no longer know what is normal.

These days I’m getting ready for a longish trip to Europe with my husband. It will be the first long trip we have taken together since he has retired. I’m very excited! Especially so because I will be able to look at clothes to buy and not feel terrible because they will have to be tent-sized. That is a real benefit to weight loss, for sure.

There’s all sorts of crap going on in my family right now…I am concerned about all of it but I’m not letting it make me eat to numb out. I believe this time is different.

Thank you for reading!!!