My Journey

I’ll start at the beginning. Well, the beginning of my current journey towards health. I can’t say the journey will end when I “get there”, i.e., when I get to a weight that is comfortable for me.

Yes this is all about a weight loss journey but it’s also about being grateful for what I have and what I’ve been lucky enough to do, at any weight.

Thing is, this is not my first weight loss journey. I do hope, however, that it is my last. I say that every time.

About one month ago, January 6th, 2023, I had my blood drawn to check my lipid levels, sugar levels, and a bunch of other stuff.

Cholesterol? 356. And mostly LDL. Sugar level? 110. Pre-diabetic. With high blood pressure, too. Weight? 238.5.

I was not the heaviest I’ve ever been (253 before birth of daughter and after gaining a bunch) but basically up 40 pounds from before the pandemic. Hence my wish to do this for the last time.

What have I learned over these many attempts?

Lots of stuff.
1. You cannot exercise away a high-fat, high-carb, high-sugar diet.

I’ve tried.

2. I will likely always feel hungry for the rest of my life except after just eating. Some would say this isn’t such a bad thing, but living through it is something else.

3. Thin people (including some doctors) think that overweight people are lazy. And that it’s a moral failure to be that way.

4. If you’re obese, you have no self-control, you’re stupid.

On this subject, why do people say to me “have you thought of losing weight?” like. Ummm. Of fucking COURSE I’ve THOUGHT about it. I hardly think of anything else. Which is one reason I’m doing this blog.

5. My 600 pound life (on TLC) is fascinating and horrifying and inspiring all at the same time.

I’m new to this series! I used to think it was telling the story of people who weigh 600 pounds or more and how great their lives are. It’s far from that. It’s about people going through the process of losing weight and their struggles. I have compassion for these people. I realize it could easily be me if I give up and just eat what I want.

Soooo…I’ll stop this here, gotta do some things.

Before I go tho…current weight is 226.8 (loss of almost 12 pounds!).